God, if you can hear the words as they cross my mind, I have something to say. I know that I have not been the most faithful. I know that I have broken every rule that you have set for me. I know that I have questioned you and doubted you on multiple occasions. I know that there are things in this world that there may be no answer for. I know that I can be a better person, and I need to follow you.
I also know Stephen Odom. I know him just about as well as a person can known someone. I know that he would want me to continue to live my life, so that is what I do. Without question. I work. I keep up with my school. I try to remain close to the ones that love him and me despite my urges to push them away. I don’t go see him every day because I know that he would want me to be the best possible version of myself, and at this moment that means my time is consumed. I know that he would be doing everything in his power to make sure that his life was on track because he knows that our time is limited. I try to keep a smile on my face when all I want to do is scream. Specifically at you.
I have been struggling with finding the right words for such a grand request, but as I sit here writing, I know that there are no right words.
So I am not going to ask. I am not going to scream. I am not going to be angry or sad. I am not going to beg. Instead, I am going to list the infinitive number of reasons that Stephen deserves a miracle.
He is an amazing brother. He has a brother and sister who he would give the world to. He knows that people fall short sometimes and need a little push. He is that push. He is wise beyond his years. He can be a crutch. An ear. A mouth. A defender. A mother. He can be a stern talking to. Or a soft touch. He is exactly what they need.
He is an impeccable student. Stephen Odom is going to law school. He is going to help people. He is willing to put forth the time and effort and has every intention of prioritizing his future above all else. He can juggle a million things at once and still manages to be the light in the life of many.
He has a great work ethic. The job that has him in his current position was part of the short-term plan. He wanted to quit multiple times but cared about his employer enough to do them the favor of staying until a set date. He would always say, “I’m doing them a favor.” Which has no relevance here, but the point is he will always do what is right.
He is an irreplaceable friend. This is where I may sound selfish, but I don’t care. People like Stephen Odom don’t enter our lives very often. Some will never experience a person with the grace, forgiveness, and selflessness that was wrapped into his personality. He is the first call because he is reliable. He is the backbone. The rock. And the light. He is a multitude of things that each person needs. I need someone who can listen and laugh. Someone else may need someone who will talk and distract. The point is that he can do it all. And there will never be anyone who can be what he is to everyone who holds him in their heart.
He is an outstanding person. He knows what he wants, and he goes for it. He is motivated and strong. He is everything to so many. He is within us. He is why we are who we are. He deserves a chance to live up to the greatness that everyone knows he has.
He deserves a God-given miracle.
So, God, I apologize for my shortcomings. Stephen forgives me for them because you lie within him. Let him shine.